DAWNAPRIL's Blog

My husband and I are recovering addicts ourselves. We started with Percocet for pain, the percocet for fun. When it wasnt fun anymore we moved up to the worst pain narcotic around-OxyContin (not to be confused with oxycodone which is the generic percocet). For 4 years we battled with this drug but had vowed to never take it to the next level-heroin. After our world just fell apart and we realized, we werent even Matt and Vicki any more, we were Oxy and Contin! We were borrowing money left and right and never paying it back. We finally found some help and have been clean since Dec. 2006. We never did meetings but we went to a Suboxone clinic instead and there we were able to talk about problems and from there we were sent home with prescriptions. It seems kinda funny to get off one pill you take another but the Suboxone helps you by stopping any withdrawels symptoms and withdrawels were the reason that we would never quit. We took the Suboxone and gained our lives back. We are now normal contributers to society and are enjoying life to the fullest. No one ever thinks that they will become addicted to pain meds but it takes only 2 straight weeks to become an addict. I tell everyone now that if you get hurt-if at all possible, take Ibuprofen or Extra Strength Tylenol. My husband and I also talk to many people in the area and will tell them what we went through and also help people look for dr.s so they are able to get clean also. I honestly think that Suboxone saved our lives and I will do anything in my power to try to prevent one person from going through what we w

You are so right when it comes to people telling an addict to "just stop". You can never just stop. You have to work for it and work hard. I think that recovering addicts are some of the strongest people in the world and unfortunately people look at us like we are bad people. Everyone always has their assumptions about why people are addicts and that they steal and deceive people all the time. My childhood was great! My parents were always there for me. My parents are still married and are a huge part of my life today and were very involved in my recovery. I never stole anything in my life. I got in trouble a little while I was younger but nothing extreme. The first doctor I went to go see, continuously asked me about my childhood and what went wrong and I finally sat back and just said-nothing was wrong-nothing! What happened was I got hurt so the doctors gave me medicine like it was candy and that was the end of it. Then she stated-well if that was that then why can't you look at your life now and just stop and have the same mind set about quitting? UUmmmm really? Arent you the doctor? But I realized I couldnt and cant get angry with people who ask those questions because they have never been through withdrawels. If someone has never been through withdrawels then they can't even begin to imagine what life is like as an addict. Addiction can be very sudden. I took pain narcotics for one month straight after my accident. I woke up one morning before my dr.s appt. and I had no medicine left but I felt like hell and was still in a lot of pain. I realized that I w

My uncle always used to say "Alcohol is great as long as you control it. It's when it controls you that the problems begin." Truer words have never been spoken. I grew up with an alcoholic and have a sibling who has an alcohol addiction. I don't even drink and alcohol has always been an issue in my life. Controlling it in one way or another. I am one of the ones who had a difficult time understanding why someone can't just quit. It's taken me a long time to realize some of what an addict goes through. I give you all credit for recognizing the problem and doing all you can to recover from it. Good luck to all of you. Keep up the good work. I am turning 50 this year and have promised myself I will get into shape, pay down my debt and quit smoking. I have just under six months to accomplish my goals. Here's hoping I can do it.

SO GOOD TO HEAR FROM EVERYONE AND YOU CAN COME FROM YALE OR JAIL AND HAVE THE SAME ADDICTION IT DOESNT DISSCRIMINATE. THE ONLY THING I KNOW IS THAT 1 I DIDNT ASK FOR IT 2 I WOULDNY GIVE IT TO MY WORST ENEMY,3, IT IS CUNNING BAFILING AND INSIDIOS DISEASE, THAT WILL TAKE YOUR LIFE AND THE LIVES OF THOSE WHO LOVE YOU.MY 28 YR OLD NIECE HAD 7 MONTHS CLEAN TAKING SUBOXON AND I NIGHT SHE DECIDED TO SOME DOPE ON A FRIDAY NIGHT AFTER GETTING A BIG JOB PROMOTION, AND HER FATHER FOUND HER DEAD!!! MONDAY MORNING ON HER BATHROOM TOILET WAS THEIR ALLLL WEEKEMD ON THE TIOLET! WHAT A WAY TO DIE ALL ALONE ON YOUR TOILET, IF THAT ISINT A WAKE UP CALL I DONT KNOW WHAT IS!!!

I first want to say that I'm proud to be one of you guys...20 years sober last June 23...Of course...as I love to say:

Do you know what 20 years sober makes you? AN OLD DRUNK!!! My sobriety today makes me in recovery!!

God bless each and every one of you. You are more special than you'll ever know...not because you were addicted, but because you were addicted and have now been sober!! fenwaydav, vickie, dawnapril....keep up the good work.

jonsmom, you have walked a long road too...made long by folks like me. Let me offer an apology on their behalf....

Hi Guys, I am a little angry tonite! I have that feeling like "God I could just...." But something else fills in the blanks rather than what used to. I am angry because I posted on another blog, and dont get me wrong-I love to debate and see where other people are coming from and I always know that there are 2 sides to everything(whether I like it or not) But on one of the other blogs a girl wrote along the lines that what Michelle Obama said was a mistake but it wasnt like she was a thief or a DRUG ADDICT!!! Excuse me but just because I was one and am in recovery doesnt mean I am the scum of the world! I probably work more than her!!!! I am stronger than her too because of it!! Ok well I know I shouldnt be like that but I did just have to vent to you all and it seems as though we are the only ones involved with this blog so I am sure that you guys can see why I would be angered by those remarks-I dont think they were directed towards me but it still gets me fired up sometimes. I am sure that the girl is a hard worker its just that what she said is an insult because I DO work very hard 6 days a week because I want to and like to. OK well now that I have taken my anger out on my keyboard I am going to lay down and get to bed. I hope you all have had a great day and tell your boss you are going to be sick tomorrow and say hello to the snow :) Take care all....until we meet again! ~Vicki~

HI EVERYONE HEY IVE WRITIEN LIKE 3 POSTS SO FAR AND THEY HANENT BEEN LISTED YET IF THIS SHOWS UP ON SOMEONE COPMUTER COULD YOU PLEASE EMAIL ME TO LET ME KNOW THAT MY COMMENT ARE BEING READ AND MYBE ITS JUST NOT SHOWING ON MY COMP????DAPRIL72@AOL.COM THANK YOU VERY MUCH HAVE A GREAT SUNDAY!

GOOD LUCK ON YOUR MOVE! AND DONT LET EVERYDAY STRESS TAKE ITS TOLL O.K. JUST SAY IM MOVING FOR A GOOD REASON NOT BECAUSE IM LOOSING MY HOME BUT GOING SOMEWHERE BIGGER! SO WHEN THE GOING GETS TOUGH JUST HAVE SOME GRADITUDE THAT HEY THINGS COULD BE WORSE, BUT WITH RECOVERY COME GRADITUDE, AND THATS WHEN YOU KNOW YOUR GOING TO MAKE IT !!!!!!

So true the last couple of days i have been wanting to use so bad I have been reading some of the things said about and to me and Im blown away by such narrow minded comments about addiction but like I said it will only make me want to say clean just out of spite LOL I wish my sponser was more avalible to me but she has been ill for the last couple of weeks and I dont want to bother her? I thing i will ask for a new one this week at my group! have a good holiday everyone HAPPY EASTER.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR KIND WORDS PAM,P, IT MEANS ALOT TO ME TO KNOW THAT THEIR ARE ANGELS OUT THEIR WITH A FEW KIND WORDS IT GETS ME THROUGH THE DAY,I DONT KNOW IF YOU HAVE BEEN ON THE MESSAGE BOARDS BUT HAVE YOU READ THE THINGS SAID TO AND ABOUT ME??? LOOK UNDER NO HELP FOR ANYONE AND YOU WILL SEE SO MUCH HATE AND ANGER OVER WELFARE PEOPLE AND ADDICTION AGAIN THANK YOU!