As I sit here and look at all the college stuff my daughter got in the mail today, I wonder what I'm going to do when she leaves the nest. Its always been just us two. As a single parent (and not by choice) we have had each other. Now she is going to start her Junior year in high school. Its that time to look at college's.
I put my life on hold and made sure my daughter had everything. From the age of 4 its been just us. I have been there for everything she has done in sports and we know as parents its hard but I did it all with her from dance to soccer from gymnastics to cheer, everyday it was something new and fun for the both of us. Now it's all going to end as she goes off to college. I'm having a hard time with all this. I know, I am happy that she is going off to college but what am I to do. Its not like I can join the senior center at the age of 39. I will be honest I have had the talk with my daughter a few times and I stress a FEW times about me and her going off to college together, even the idea of dorming it together too.
As my daughter made the both of us a big bowl of ice cream with brownies I knew I was in for one of those talks that a mother has with her daughter, but this time it was my daughter having the talk with me. She reminded me that I have put my life on hold and now its time for me to live my life as I have been living 2 lives as mom & dad. She reminds me that I have done a great job and everything that she has learned from me she will teach her kids some day, (where is that senior center again).
As we sit on the couch in deep talk and me crying because I feel like I am loosing my life and my best friend she reminds me about dating, WHAT dating I asked her if she was crazy and she told me lots of people are still doing it. Because I choose not to date after my divorce and focus only on her and her education, she reminds me its just like riding a bike all over again. But I'm not sure if I'm ready for that.
What do you do with your life after your child/children leave the nest?
Well the news is out and Yes the New Kids on the Block are coming back!
I could not wait to tell me daughter that when we are at the KISS Concert on May 18th, I am going to know one band there! I thought it was great. Don't get me wrong, I'm still stuck in the 70's late 80's for music and don't mind it. Well check this one out.
I ran in this a.m. to tell my daughter about the New Kids on the Block was coming to the KISS concert and she just looked at me and said " WHO "! She must be kidding.
So I ran down stairs and I knew what box all my tapes where in and right on top in the box was my New Kid on the Block tape. So I ran back up stairs and ran around the house to find a tape player so I could play her the tape so she could have a flash back with me.
Boy was I the one getting the flash back. I could not find a player that played TAPES! All we have are players that play CD's! Boy have times changed. I guess I should also look into getting rid of the A track too and the reel to reel !
Now only if the band Journey would come back!
